Darkness

I saw her in her glory
Fascinated by the love she showed
Blinded by my own cowardice
I said nought the others blatant

She waited till my hay was reached
troubled by the control I seek
Little did she see the cowardice
hidden beneath

She left in a haze
having no other choice apparent
but I was left in the trail
seeking no one apparent

I blame her absolutely not
Her reasons solid and very sane
but the pain that is there
just dosnt go away

Darkness preceeds and succeeds
All Can see is the this movie play over
based on the seasons starting with summer
Leading to a cold bleak winter

Throughout your hopes are kept alive
in the thought that it will end in spring
but the movie ends in a cold dark winter
Abruptly at that and no more

you are left in a wake of selfish sadness
But you will never recover
A verdict that had been passed a long time ago
and yet someone up there laughs in jest
For I do not see what it is that pans out

Resurrection

Its been quite painful coming to this space... but i guess an outlet is an outlet... I made an observation years ago when I read the lord of the rings. In the end once Sauron is vanquished and everybody is back to happy ways and so called eternal happiness Frodo is lost. Lost completely- so much so that he starts keeping to himself except for Sam. As you read on- there are some very beautiful points of views-- of one's lost innocence -- how frodo has been posioned too much in his soul to continue a meaningless existance of finding a wife... raising kids ... being "Happy" on society's terms and leading a "good life"... to poisoned too enriched in a way ... the meloncholy that Tolkien creates is mind numbing... I remember being very uncomfortable as if one day... one day...