all the times you came to me
and told me that you cared
i was dreamin of happy days
that we can both could share
maybe i got too excited
and maybe you freaked out
maybe i just have to call you up
and scream and shout
all of my friends tell me
that i ought to play it cool
no one likes too much attention
from a desperate fool
still i dont believe
that i can keep it all inside
when i see your pretty face
i almost want to cry

i know it isnt right
but still i have to fight
i have to let you know
i dont wanna let you go
the pain is killing me
but i cant let it be
i have to let you know
i dont want to let you go

i remember the days
when i was stronger than a wall
try as anybody might
they couldnt move me at all
now i fall to pieces
when you softly call my name
goin up in smoke
rings a moth within your flame
i have lost all hope
for being normal once again
i will be a slave to you
untill the bitter end
even if its a hundred years
before you change your mind
i will be here waiting girl
until the end of time


i know it isnt right
but still i have to fight
i have to let you know
i dont wanna let you go
the pain is killing me
but i cant let it be
i have to let you know
i dont want to let you go


i know it isnt right
but still i have to fight
i have to let you know
i dont wanna let you go
the pain is killing me
but i cant let it be
i have to let you know
i dont want to let you go

A reply

"Asuri Sudarsanan said...

achievement huh?
this philosophy is called Nayyayika Vaisheshika given by Akshapadhar (Gautama Muni), according to which, when Vaisheshika gnanam (conciousnes knowledge about this universe) dies, you get liberated.

well explained, researched, debated and trashed already :P"

Impressive. But not really.. :D I have always known that every thought that I have was probably thought of an debated in through the annals of time. Let me ask you to clarify your comment a litte and maybe push forth an argument. When you say "explained, researched and trashed" what do you mean?

For a strong philosophical thought to occur- one must have had an equally strong experience. But to debate and trash one needs only so called logic. The vedas or the puranas do not provide us the armory to say that something is wrong or this is my experience .. this is logic.. hence this must be true..:D So any place that it has been trashed has been through the interpretation of other individuals .. however advanced might be their thinking they have not found any ultimate truth. To be so strongly apposed to an idea one must have an equally strong reason other than what is debated.

So for me- I have been through an emotionally torrid time... and hence such a thought occurred. I question existence and no matter what someone else suggests- be it debated before it will not convince me else unless an experience does so. To be concise I do not seek answers to satisfy myself but question my experience and innate conscience and conscience is different from "conciousnes" of what it is that surrounds you.. :)

Crazy Paranoid ideas.. :D

Ok.. so I am gonna try and present a paranoid idea.. lets see how this goes:

What if the earth and the solar system was designed to be a mighty prison and the concept of a conscience was created to stop someone from escaping this prison.. the greatest ever programming achievement ever!

He sank into the tub... lower ... lower... lower....


She looked so happy. He was hugging her... she was soo happy.... they were dancing.


He sank lower. He had broken a personal rule. He never drank alone. Today he did. He sank lower.

They lived happily ever after.