all the times you came to me
and told me that you cared
i was dreamin of happy days
that we can both could share
maybe i got too excited
and maybe you freaked out
maybe i just have to call you up
and scream and shout
all of my friends tell me
that i ought to play it cool
no one likes too much attention
from a desperate fool
still i dont believe
that i can keep it all inside
when i see your pretty face
i almost want to cry

i know it isnt right
but still i have to fight
i have to let you know
i dont wanna let you go
the pain is killing me
but i cant let it be
i have to let you know
i dont want to let you go

i remember the days
when i was stronger than a wall
try as anybody might
they couldnt move me at all
now i fall to pieces
when you softly call my name
goin up in smoke
rings a moth within your flame
i have lost all hope
for being normal once again
i will be a slave to you
untill the bitter end
even if its a hundred years
before you change your mind
i will be here waiting girl
until the end of time


i know it isnt right
but still i have to fight
i have to let you know
i dont wanna let you go
the pain is killing me
but i cant let it be
i have to let you know
i dont want to let you go


i know it isnt right
but still i have to fight
i have to let you know
i dont wanna let you go
the pain is killing me
but i cant let it be
i have to let you know
i dont want to let you go

A reply

"Asuri Sudarsanan said...

achievement huh?
this philosophy is called Nayyayika Vaisheshika given by Akshapadhar (Gautama Muni), according to which, when Vaisheshika gnanam (conciousnes knowledge about this universe) dies, you get liberated.

well explained, researched, debated and trashed already :P"

Impressive. But not really.. :D I have always known that every thought that I have was probably thought of an debated in through the annals of time. Let me ask you to clarify your comment a litte and maybe push forth an argument. When you say "explained, researched and trashed" what do you mean?

For a strong philosophical thought to occur- one must have had an equally strong experience. But to debate and trash one needs only so called logic. The vedas or the puranas do not provide us the armory to say that something is wrong or this is my experience .. this is logic.. hence this must be true..:D So any place that it has been trashed has been through the interpretation of other individuals .. however advanced might be their thinking they have not found any ultimate truth. To be so strongly apposed to an idea one must have an equally strong reason other than what is debated.

So for me- I have been through an emotionally torrid time... and hence such a thought occurred. I question existence and no matter what someone else suggests- be it debated before it will not convince me else unless an experience does so. To be concise I do not seek answers to satisfy myself but question my experience and innate conscience and conscience is different from "conciousnes" of what it is that surrounds you.. :)

Crazy Paranoid ideas.. :D

Ok.. so I am gonna try and present a paranoid idea.. lets see how this goes:

What if the earth and the solar system was designed to be a mighty prison and the concept of a conscience was created to stop someone from escaping this prison.. the greatest ever programming achievement ever!

He sank into the tub... lower ... lower... lower....


She looked so happy. He was hugging her... she was soo happy.... they were dancing.


He sank lower. He had broken a personal rule. He never drank alone. Today he did. He sank lower.

They lived happily ever after.

Darkness

I saw her in her glory
Fascinated by the love she showed
Blinded by my own cowardice
I said nought the others blatant

She waited till my hay was reached
troubled by the control I seek
Little did she see the cowardice
hidden beneath

She left in a haze
having no other choice apparent
but I was left in the trail
seeking no one apparent

I blame her absolutely not
Her reasons solid and very sane
but the pain that is there
just dosnt go away

Darkness preceeds and succeeds
All Can see is the this movie play over
based on the seasons starting with summer
Leading to a cold bleak winter

Throughout your hopes are kept alive
in the thought that it will end in spring
but the movie ends in a cold dark winter
Abruptly at that and no more

you are left in a wake of selfish sadness
But you will never recover
A verdict that had been passed a long time ago
and yet someone up there laughs in jest
For I do not see what it is that pans out

Resurrection

Its been quite painful coming to this space... but i guess an outlet is an outlet... I made an observation years ago when I read the lord of the rings. In the end once Sauron is vanquished and everybody is back to happy ways and so called eternal happiness Frodo is lost. Lost completely- so much so that he starts keeping to himself except for Sam. As you read on- there are some very beautiful points of views-- of one's lost innocence -- how frodo has been posioned too much in his soul to continue a meaningless existance of finding a wife... raising kids ... being "Happy" on society's terms and leading a "good life"... to poisoned too enriched in a way ... the meloncholy that Tolkien creates is mind numbing... I remember being very uncomfortable as if one day... one day...

RIP

The Calcutta Chromosome

I am ashamed to even admit this but I hadnt read a book in three years now other than the last harry puttar.. :D that hasnt stopped me from buying books though .. for I knew one day i would break my rut and I would need a lot of books then.. :|... :D MS kids me about that with a raised eyebrow every time I say I stopped by a Barnes and Nobles.. :D Anyway finally the rut has been broken! I am halfway through this book by Amitav Ghosh a gift from S about a year and a half ago on my birthday... until now I got to say its the best conspiracy book ever.. the shunting between time history and characters is extremely well done without losing track of the plot.. brilliant until now!

PS- Weezer is awesome!


PS PS- just finished the novel.. Brilliant simply Brilliant!

I am getting old.. :( ~(_8-(!)

I recently started working at a new place. I stopped by the recruiters office a couple of weeks ago to do the paperwork. When I came out I thought " Do I remember her face? Will I recognise her If I saw her on the street again? " I was so in my own world I thought I really didnt notice. And then I thought" Heck - How does it even matter"... and everytime I have had a cocky thought It sure has come to bite me in the ass .. :D As luck would have it she was visiting my work place and passed by my cubicle and says" Heyyy Prashanth ... hows it going?" and I turn around dazed.. not recognising her.. and in a confused voice followed by ackward silence " Hey not to bad" and then another confused smile.. fortunately she was clld away before I had any further chance of making an ass of myself.. :D and then it all came back... :D God! she must think I am such a moron....

“Open Windows-Closed DOORS”

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